' ; A H X I A N's

开始自己的明天 /.

2010-06-04T05:44:00.000-07:00

Thank you for everyone's concern towards me , seriously .
I didn't believe that dreams come true till my instructor told me .
Actually , dreams really do come true if you really persude it .
Dreams do come true if you really work hard , fight for it .
Impossible is nothing is what instructor ben told me .
Don't give up halfway when you're already at the ending point .
Don't lose faith , hope and trust in yourself in every dream you're fighting for .
Every step you take , you come nearer to your dream .
Every dream is worth fighting for , if you don't take the shortcut .
One day dreams will really come true , if you believe in it .

Instructor Ben ;
Thank you for knowing that dreams do come true .
Thank's for giving me that heart to heart talk at the first day .
I might be tough in appearance , but the fact is ; 'm weak .
I tried to give my laughter's to people around me , i tried .
And , you must also give laughter to everyone around you okay ?
And , you still haven't dance shuffle ley !
I WAITING HOR !
Miss - '; A H X I A N 's ,

Whatever it is , i'm leaving /.

2010-05-27T03:21:00.000-07:00

Seriously lah hor , you can fucking go die .

Everything kor can lah , i can't lah .

He's every time correct while i'm in wrong every time .

Have you all ever ask yourself why did i became this ?

You think i want to be a girl who every time find problem with other's ?

To make trouble at school when the moment i enter ah ?

Eh , you got think why did i used t sniff glue ?

Did you thought why did i hang out till late at night then go home ?

Cause i wanna give myself a break .

I hate it when the home i came back is in madness .

You just came home & didn't get the fucking fact's right .

Since brother is so good , go ahead aye .

I'll leave this home & come back when i'm happy .

Yes like what daddy says , this home is a hotel .

I happy i come , i not happy i go .

I've made up my mind already , tonight .

I ain't coming back tonight , no more .

I'm going back 'home' till 'm happy .

What makes you love her more then me ./

2010-02-01T04:13:00.000-08:00

I'm tireddd , totally .
Tired of you loving me & her .
Tired of you lying t me .
Tired of two girls sharing one guy .
You're meant t be mine & yet ...
You should know will of who you love .
You're no longer a kid boy , no more .
Sending me long messages just t make me feel touched .
Please , i don't need any sweet talks .
It's all bullshit .
If loving you was so that difficult , i rather not love you .
Seeing you cry breaks my heart , but what can i do ?
You must know that i'm not th one you love at all .
She's th one you love .
How many times i told you i'm not th one .
I'm tired of everything .
I will just have t make you give up .
Cause , i'm really not th one .
May you find th girl whom you truly love & deserve .

I'll never wanted you ever again ,

2010-01-26T02:24:00.000-08:00

Yes , i'll never ever wanted you again .
Tired & sick of you .
We'll never get th same thinking .
We never knew what each of us are thinking .
Th age gap is totally far apart .
10years boy , it's not only 1year .
10years , i could not take it .
You're old enough t be my brother , it's true .
Thank's fr th care you gave , th love you gave .
But , i found someone good enough fr me .
Idk will i last with him , but he's good enough .
T'care .

It was never you ,

2010-01-21T04:13:00.000-08:00

I knew that it was going t end sooner or later .
& yes , i was perfectly right .
It ended yesterday .
I wasn't sad , happy or angry .
Th feeling i'd was nothing .
Yes , nothing at all .
I thought i would break down into tears .
But strangely enough , not even a tear i shed fr you .
Maybe i already get used to it , (: .
You're nothing but a jerk t me , (: .
Yes , i fucking hate you t th coreeee !

Totally wrong ,

2010-01-15T10:02:00.000-08:00

Sigh , idk what's on your mind .
I already tiried so hard t understand you .
But in th end , what do i get ?
Cold attitude ...
I really had enough .
It ended once & i don't wish this t end ever again .
But , idk this will last how long .
My pint high hopes on you , but ....
Idk mezxc , i really feel like giving up .
Again & again i feel restless .
When i need you , you not there .
You told me you love me , but then ...
What's seriously on your mind ?
I wish t know ...
I wish i would have th power t read thru your mind , but i can't .
am'i fit t be yours , idk .
Every hope i have on you seems t be vanish .
Sigh .
Make those hopes & faith i've in you come back please .
I..i..i'm really tired .

27052009 ,

2010-01-12T04:18:00.000-08:00

Sigh ..
Seriously , i miss baby fucking much nao .
He's out there working with he's phone battery flat , ): .
I'm worried you guys know ?
He meet me today & i told him to go back in .
But , he doesn't wanna go back hostel .
He just wanne go in boys home , i don't get it ...
He's mummy , ahgong & me are worrying ..
Sigh , i don't wish fr baby to go in boys home fr 4years .
Just want him to go in hostel fr 2years , that's all .
Sigh , i don't wish to care anything already .
Other than baby's thingy .